@ALBUM: Jamie Notarthomas by Jamie Notarthomas 1989 and 1990 (independent release) 1. I'm Not Your Slave 2. Fish on a Line 3. I'm on Your Side (I'm not Pointing My Finger at You) 4. Minus One 5. The Dead End (In memory of Mike Cubito) 6. Goodbye 7. Christina 8. On My Own 9. Take Me or Leave Me 10. Hope for the World 11. Speechless 12. Don't Take Away Love All songs by Jamie Notarthomas. @SONG: I'm Not Your Slave ------------------------ I want perfection. Give me success Make it faster, I'll take the best Striving for freedom Then locking the door The grass is always greener We always want more... more... more I want it so much I need it I need it so much I want it I love it so much I hate it Set me free, I'm not your slave I'm not your slave We've got the desires We've got our needs And the obsessions And the greed We got the coke to make us happy We got the money to make us feel secure Either I want it so much I need it I need it so much I want it ...I don't know I love it so much I hate it Set me free, I'm not your slave I'm not your slave no Set me free, let me go I'm not your slave no Set me free, let me go, I'm not your slave Visions of women in various positions Capture my mind, It won't let go, ...won't let go Look at those eyes and the curves I can't resist the urge, the nerve, I'm burning 'cause I want it so much I need it I need it so much I want it, ...help me I love it so much I hate it Set me free, I'm not your slave I'm not your slave no Set me free, let me go I'm not your slave no Set me free, let me go, I'm not your slave no @SONG: Fish on a Line -------------------- He calls you three times a day To tell you he's sorry, for what? For things he don't mean to change He calls 'cause he cares about himself It's never been your choice But he makes you think it is By telling you what you feel Sometimes you believe him when he calls And he's got you like a fish on a line Say good-bye hang up that phone Take the hook out of your mouth That can't be love, that is not love He's gonna reel you in He's waiting until you're tired and weak Forget all the others he says You belong to me He smiles as you struggle Then lets out some line so you can run Then pulls it back hard again The phone rings but once, you take the bait And he's got you like a fish on a line Say good-bye hang up that phone Take the hook out of your mouth That can't be love, that is not love He's toying with your mind He's drinking up your soul He's gonna feast on your flesh But first all he needs is the control And he's got you like a fish on a line Say good-bye hang up that phone Take the hook out of your mouth That can't be love, that is not love @SONG: I'm on Your Side (I'm not Pointing My Finger at You) ----------------------------------------------------- I know this world is killing you Please understand it hurts me too Both trying to give. Both reaching for help. Darling who's gonna save who? I'm not comparing my pain I'd never play such a game And I'm not pointing my finger at you No, I'm not pointing my finger at you So many times we get in over our heads And the heart and the mind become tangled threads And all the best intentions Just circle down the drain I know this world is killing you Please understand it burns me too Both trying to give. Both reaching for help. Help me tear down these walls Let's call a truce 'Cause if it's you I'd explain Darling when I complain I'm not pointing my finger at you No, I'm not pointing my finger at you I'm on your side @SONG: Minus One ----------------- In a closet in a box, you can't hide nothing from a kid When his dad went off to the football game Guess what that kid did? Last week it was lighting hairspray, this week he found a gun He was trying to be like Rambo when he pushed on it with his thumb Now the news says it's the father's fault, and the father blames the son And the N.R.A. is doing everything to protect the stupid gun But when all is said, nothing's done Life goes on... Minus One I was walking through Columbus Circle when I saw two street bums One of them was just lying there lifeless in the sun Upon closer inspection, I discovered he was dead The other bum reached over, grabbed the bottle from under his head I looked at him puzzled, he just looked back and grinned Then said, "Someday I want to be just like him" He took a sip of that whiskey, then offered me some He said, "Life goes on... Minus One." Now Charles Manson's just an argument the politicians use Like Hitler convinced his countrymen that it was good to kill the Jews Now down in Georgia there's a judge who supports the K.K.K. Who just sent another innocent black man to the electric chair today And while that judge sleeps the dirty work is done by a hired hand Who never saw or heard the witness or defendant on the stand The switch goes down, the deed is done Life goes on... Minus One Now if you're working in the nursing homes, you see it every day It's something you've got to get used to, there just ain't no other way Now the people gather at the graveyard to hear the final words Of the Pastor's reinterpretation of something he once heard He prays, "Lord take her spirit and please take away our hurt" Then they lower down the coffin. The little boy throws the dirt "Thy kingdom come, thy will be done" Life goes on... Minus One @SONG: The Dead End (In memory of Mike Cubito) -------------------------------------------- On a hot summer night if there's nothing to do There's a place near the park and Woodbine Avenue And as the sun goes down The cars pull into the dead end The radios are blastin'. Bucky's always laughin' Everybody's talking 'bout some place they're gonna be And if misery needs company It can always find a friend in the dead end. Ingesting magic potions. Chasing with JD Where we can forget about tomorrow Where we don't need to be free To get high enough To see beyond the place I know I'll be When I wake up again in the dead end There must be a road that leads out of here I don't know where it goes and I don't really care 'Cause I got the car If you got the money to spend I'll meet you after work in the dead end. @SONG: Goodbye --------------- Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry If you're not happy then neither am I Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry No matter what I do you're never satisfied If you tried your best and you gave it all you got And you thought things were going pretty good And she tells you that they rot Well I tried my best. I gave it all I had I thought things were going great, but she said... I told her... Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry If you're not happy then neither am I Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry No matter what I do you're never satisfied I gave you time, I gave you love I gave you things you were without When you told me up was down, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. Excuse me if I'm wrong Take this with a grain of salt But why am I always the one to apologize When we both know it's your fault? Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry If you're not happy then neither am I Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry No matter what I do you're never satisfied We argue back and forth, it's always the same You win again baby, I'm tired of this game Though it might be your court, it's my ball You say Satan's got ahold of me, 'n soon I'm gonna fall But even if you're right, it's my call And I'm willing to bet I'm really not such a bad guy after all Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry If you're not happy then neither am I Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry No matter what I do you're never satisfied Now there's no direction left to turn There's only one door that I have yet to walk through And behind that door is another world That does not revolve around you Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry If you're not happy then neither am I Good-bye Good-bye. Go ahead and cry No matter what I do you're never satisfied You're not happy, so neither am I And it's me that you're not happy with And I'm sick of asking why Good-bye Good-bye Good-bye @SONG: Christina ---------------- From out of the past you still know who I am I'm the same child trapped in this mask of a man My music has not let me down I'm still holding on We can't be together, no not in this world You are married, I'm with the same girl Take our memories of children discovering pearls And never let go They say "There's no such place as far away" But it won't be the same after today But if I could with upon a star I'd give anything to be your guitar You would hold me and share all your dreams When you touched me, I'd sing like the streams Full of joy and pain that flow from your soul When you played me, you'd never let go Christina, Nobody knows me like you It's too bad a wish can't come true Still I'll name my guitar after you Hold me, Touch me Full of joy and pain that flow from your soul When we're dancing and never let go Christina, Nobody knows me like you In a way sometimes wishes come true I've named my guitar after you @SONG: On My Own ----------------- Every time you've seen my I have changed But from my eyes this all just looks the same I am just a lonely painter reflecting everything I see This time I come to you with my dream Somehow it's become a part of me I am not even half so free I've chased this thing, but now it chases me Now I introduce you to my fear Twenty-six and it's still waiting here Where did all my heroes go I finally realized I am on my own @SONG: Take Me or Leave Me -------------------------- My love is white. My love is alive It's not anything that's gone or is yet to arrive It's not some wild drug. It's not the cage Nor is it a computer preset of this day and age Don't deceive me Take me or leave me It's raining outside like many times before There's a leak in my roof and I don't care anymore It drips from the ceiling like the life from my soul For we climbed great heights And now we've taken a great fall Don't deceive me Take me or leave me There's a photo on the table and it wears my face I'm filled with sadness but it doesn't show a trace Baby can't you tell that there is something wrong Oh won't you please take out this thorn Don't deceive me Take me or leave me She loves me/She loves me not One day cold/The next day hot She loves me/She loves me not Now, I'm not like anything that you haven't seen I can't be like that man in the magazine I don't have a subscription or the clothes to match Nor do I need a submissive woman that comes attached Don't deceive me Take me or leave me She loves me/She loves me not One day cold/The next day hot She loves me/She loves me not Now I've said everything that is to be said And I found that it's useless to plead with the dead I could say a prayer that we might not live alone Then again, I could comb my hair, but I lost my comb Don't go walking away through that danger zone You might not see me follow you back home Don't deceive me Take me or leave me She loves me/She loves me not One day cold/The next day hot She loves me/She loves me not @SONG: Hope for the World ------------------------- Sometimes I wonder... Is there hope for the world? And then I wonder... Is it up to me? Is there hope for me? Is there hope for you? The world has finally found its way to my door I hear it breathing right outside of my room Oh Lord, Deliver me from the beast The world has worked its way right into my music I'm not sure if I can be real anymore Am I more than those who put me here? The world has pried its way right into my soul It's rotting inward; it feels so cold Take it out. Don't let me be a channel of its hatred Sometimes I wonder... Is there hope for the world? And then I wonder... Is it up to me? Is there hope for me? Is there hope for you? @SONG: Speechless ------------------ Don't ask me what I'm thinking baby I don't know But I'm sure that it is something good Don't ask me what I'm thinking baby I don't know But I probably wouldn't tell you even if I could To stop and explain just would not do We'll get to that when we are through Right now I'm speechless speechless There is nothing to say baby I'm speechless speechless I cannot talk when my tongue is tied I'm speechless speechless Feel just like two school kids, naked in the back seat I feel a little funny when cars go by, but all they see is our feet I thought that I could keep control when I tasted your kiss A million thoughts flow through my mind now I can't focus Right now I'm speechless speechless There is nothing to say baby I'm speechless speechless I cannot talk when my tongue is tied I'm speechless speechless Too many people grow older And regret they passed the chance But I think that it's alright for you and me Considering the circumstance So, cut the oral presentation Stop the vocal romance We've spent too much time talking Now it's time to dance Speechless speechless There is nothing to say baby We're speechless speechless We cannot talk when our tongues are tied I'm speechless speechless I love it when you talk that way Speechless speechless Let our bodies do the talking for us Speechless speechless Speechless speechless @SONG: Don't Take Away Love --------------------------- Do you remember the 13th of September When everybody thought that the world would end 1989 has come, maybe by now it's gone I don't even know if they'll hear this song Will we last that long? God, don't take away love God, you must be greater, must be greater Men who bought their authority, the pillars of society I don't know how we can go on this way Poisoning the lakes and the air. It's only getting worse from here How can we believe what they're saying I'm praying God, don't take away love God, is this really the end, really the end? I quit playing their game I quit fooling myself I quit worshipping this Or playing the pawn to the greed and the lies 'Cause I know in my heart it could be far greater Like the mountains that humble my eyes Like the sea that's greater than me Like the stars we'll never reach God, don't take away love God, you must be greater, must be greater Sleeping in a cardboard box Freezing by a door that's locked Of a church that's made of glass, stone, and nothing more THe book has foretold the tale, so all they do is sit and wait They say, "There's nothing we can do, it's too late," But I say... that... God, won't take away love God, you must be greater, must be great God, don't take away love God, is this really the end, really the end? Don't take away love ------------------------- Jeffrey Anbinder The Sexiest Man in Ithaca Radio jta1@cornell.edu