@ALBUM: Ugly @ARTIST: Life of Agony 1. Seasons 2. I regret 3. Lost at 22 4. Other side of the river 5. Let's pretend 6. Ugly 7. Drained 8. How it would be 9. Unstable 10. Damned if I do 11. Fears 12. Don't you (forget about me) 13. Coffee break 14. Redemption song The lyrics come from the sheets, but where edited a little after checking them against what's actually sung on the CD. This version 2. Daniel van Os - os@cs.utwente.nl Thanks to Marloes for 'the' L.O.A. Experience. @SONG: Seasons It disturbs me to see that you're growing old. It concerns me to be the one you want to hold. Too busy running on fuel, thank God you made it through. Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold. Too busy running on fuel, thank God you made it through. Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold. And turn these days to gold. Lost as father and son. Bring us back together as one. Seasons change and so did your son. Strife with emotions that can't be one. Too busy running on fuel, thank God you made it through. Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold. Want to hand you a piece, of my delicate heart. This song is to uplift you and not to tear you apart. Father's lost in the mountains. But no mountain I can't see. But if that mountain should crumble come crumble on top of me. @SONG: I regret I know my days are numbered. I've been in and out of this phase. But these days keep passing me by. Good (god) never comes my way. Try to sit back and relax. Try and think of something good. Something else and something pure. I can't but I know I should. Things I should have said. Things that I regret. And I regret. No more waiting for something better to come along. It's much easier to change me than it's to change them all. Things I should have said and things that I regret. I need to shed all my skin and start again. Things I should have said. Things that I regret. And I regret. And every turn I make is wrong. I haven't smiled in so long. Shed my skin and start again. Shed my skin and start again. The memories that I once had, of all the good good good good times we all used to have. Shed my skin and start again Shed my skin and start again @SONG: Lost at 22 If I knew what to do I'd do it. If I knew where to go I'd get there someday. If I knew where to fly I'd fly away, forget about life for a while. But it never is that easy to just pick up and go and do as you're told like. 'cause life never works out that way. If it were true the skies would be full everyday. If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away. If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away. If I knew how to fly, I knew how to fly away. Well I'm lost at 22 and I've got no fucking clue. No I don't know if things will work out right. I'm lost and confused. I'm lost at 22 and I don't know if my life's gonna end up right. 'cause they keep on telling me that I'm young, dumb and naive. But that's just what they want me to believe. Well I'd rather be lost at sea than become part of this society. Where the grass is always green and the air is always clean. At least that's what they want me to believe. At least that's what they want me to believe. I'm lost at 22. I'm lost at 22. I'm lost. @SONG: Other side of the river There's blood on the floor and you're not even moving. Don't really know if it's mine or yours but you ain't moving. Eyes are wide as you grin at me. You know there's a place where you rather would be. If you should die and I survive, how could I go on knowing that I'm still alive? Here breathing. There's a beast that's living deep within me. Forcing me to feed all my needs. Yeah he's in me. And he brought us here to end our fears. To wave goodbye to all of the tears. To start a new live on the other side of the river. Well my world would be over. My world would be over. Hold on, hold on, I won't be long. Wait for me, man, I won't be long. You were such in a rush to reach the other side. Look at yourself with that look in your eye. Smiling wide, pre-occupied with that river. Well my world would be over. My world would be over. @SONG: Let's pretend In the stilness of the night my eyes are closed. My mouth is wide. I could see her face. Her beautifull hair I could recognize. She looks at me cold. She probably don't know who I am. Mommy it is me, it's Keith. You had me back when... But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me. Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me. I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am. My mind it's dreaming, God it's so misleading. Do you thing it's 'cause I've grown old. Is it true that what I was told? You cried to leave me? You know I know it's not your fault. You had a husband who was selfish and cold. Believe me I know. And now I hear you used to treat me cold. You disappeared and left me all alone. I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong. 'cause both of you were always getting stoned. But sometimes I like to pretend. But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me. Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me. Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me. I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am. @SONG: Ugly Have you ever woke up screaming? Have you woken alone? The walls around you won't stop laughing. Where do you go? Sweat seeps in your eyes at night, you realize... that no one understands you at all. That no one understands you at all. Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown. Should've seen it coming from miles away. Packed my bags and started running. Brain's been shaking since yesterday. There's only so far you can run boy. There's only so far to leave your problems behind. 'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking. No matter how far, you'll never leave it behind. No one understands me at all. No one understands me at all.... Now I'm 22 with still no clue of who I am, who I'm supposed to be. Know it, to you it sounds funny, you've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease. Started asking myself do I fit in? Where I belong. Could this really be me? Been feeling downright ugly. Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be? So what's the difference? You're doing fine. The clock keeps ticking, as you lose your mind. The one you need to call you, never calls. Sweat seeps in your eyes at night, you realize, that no one understands you, at all Sweat seeps in your eyes at night, you realize, that no one understands you, at all No one understands you, at all. No one understands me at all. @SONG: Drained They'll make you or break you. They'll swallow you whole. They'll find you and bind you to every word that they own. But you know that you need them. So you continue to feed them. So I hope that you're in this for all the right reasons. Drained, oh. They can't make you feel something you don't believe in. But they can threathen your future and everything in it. When you fail to remember just where you've been. When you can't tell up from down, how do you write from within? And all I know is that they're trying to squeeze me dry. They told me they own me. And all I know is that they're trying to squeeze me dry. They're trying to squeeze me dry. They're trying to squeeze me dry. They're trying to squeeze me dry. Trying to squeeze me dry. I look in the mirror and what do I see? A man staring back at me who used to be me. He looks so familiar. He once had big dreams. But I can see that he's been drained of his soul and integrity. Drained, oh. And all I know is that they're trying to squeeze me dry. Drained, oh. Drained, oh. Drained, oh. @SONG: How it would be I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around. The types of talk, the relationships we could have had. The three of us, me, you and Dad. My mouth went dry. My stomach felt queasy too. So empty and scared, it's all because of you. A dead body that turned out not to be dead, no one understands Wish I really knew what happened to my mom, 'cause my family they told me nothing but lies. They figured if they just told me the truth, I'd break down and cry. Feel betrayed and hurt. Profoundly insecure. Want to knock ten times on heaven's door. Still suffering from old emotional wounds, I was getting worse. Can't depend on them and their lies. Why did see leave? And how did she die? When it gets colder outside, I'll be back next year with that feeling to make me cry With that feeling to make me cry. With that feeling to make me cry. With that feeling to make me cry. Wanna go visit her grave, because it's been a long, long time. Want to pick a peach rose and rest it on its side. Say a prayer eventhough I don't believe and say goodbye. Don't get me wrong I have a mind to keep me strong. There's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong. And how she's dead and gone. And how she's dead and gone. Can't depend on them and their lies. Why did see leave? And how did she die? When it gets colder outside, I'll be back next year with that feeling to make me cry With that feeling to make me cry. Don't think anyone thinks of you as much as I do. As much as I do. @SONG: Unstable This cancer is killing me as much as it is killing you. If it takes you away from me, I don't know what I would do. Just try for some peace of mind but it's so hard to find. It's so hard to just sit and wait and wait some more staring at the door. Skim through the magazines. Pretend like everything's gonna be allright, although you know it won't be. Unstable. Unstable. It's hard to be the one who's strong, who's always got a shoulder to cry on. Who's got a shoulder for me? When I'm about to breakdown you're never around. But maybe it's better that way. You've got enough to worry about. You've got your hands full, don't you? Don't you see this cancer is killing me like it's killing you? Mentally. Unstable. Unstable. And all I really want to know if she's gonna be allright, 'cause she's been in there a long, long time and I've been out there losing my mind. You're scared, you're frightened, you're so afraid of what he may say. But you try and be brave for me sitting impatiently in the lobby of emergency. You burst on through that door with this look on your face, I've, I've never seen before. You explode into endless tears, whisper in my ear, Baby, Baby: "I've only got one more year." Unstable. Unstable. @SONG: Damned if I do Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know? Is it wrong to feel so insecure and so unappealing? Why walk around in disguise with a fake grin on my face? What would it prove? What would I gain? I'd still feel so out of place. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. Midlife crisis at the age of 22, who knew? I need some answers. Cross the street and down the avenue I stopped for the woman and Paid five bucks and got my palm read. And she said: "You shouldn't be smiling boy, this life line says you're allready dead." Just keep on moving forward never turning back. But with every step ahead I take they pull me two steps back. They pull me two steps back. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. @SONG: Fears No one knows what it's like, no one knows how it feels. Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear. Been on my own, struggling all alone, all I have are these clothes on my back and this song. I never had much I never believed I could be, someone, somehow, somebody. Said goodbye to all my childhood hopes and dreams. Time to grow up and accept responsibilities. No one knows what it's like, no one knows how it feels. Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear. Been on my own, struggling all alone, all I have are these clothes on my back and this song. Listen, won't you listen to the things I have to say? 'cause it just might affect the way that you think about how you live from day to day. It may be easy for you but it seems like hell to me. Time to grow up and accept responsibility. No one knows what it's like, no one knows how it feels. Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear. Been on my own, struggling all alone, all I have are these clothes on my back and this song. @SONG: Don't you (forget about me) Won't you come see about me, I'll be alone, dancing you know it, baby. Tell me your troubles and doubts, giving everything inside and out. Love strange, so real in the dark, think of the tender things that we were working on. Slow change may pull us apart, when our live gets into your heart baby. Don't you, forget about me. Don't, don't, don't, don't, Don't you, forget about me. Don't you, try and pretend. It's my feeling we'll win in the end. I won't harm you or touch your defences. Vanity, insecurity. Don't you forget about me. I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby. Come to, I'll take you apart, I'll put us back together at heart baby. Don't you, forget about me. Don't, don't, don't, don't, Don't you, forget about me. Don't, don't, don't, don't... Will you stand above me? Look my way, never love me? Rains keeps falling, Rains keeps falling down, down, down. Hey hey hey hey, hoooo yeahhhh. Don't you, forget about me. Don't, don't, don't, don't.... But you walk on by, will you call my name? As you walk on by, will you call my name? As you walk away. Will you walk away? Will you walk away? Come on baby call my name I say, will you call my name? I say lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala........ Will you call my name, baby Won't you please let me feel like ..?.. I know I feel you Let me see my hands before you Let me see your hands before me I said why don't you call my name I need, want you to call my name I need you to call my name @SONG: Coffee break The most comfortable place isn't comfortable anymore I feel so out of place No one knows me for sure I have this guilty consciousness And ... not to be me I feel like a certain somebody But I know I can be me Too many people try to put me down ..... for me I was insulted the other night ..... it's not me ... I try to sing my songs But I have trouble with that too The hardest thing to imagine is what comes next Don't have strength don't have courage When you're lacking confidence I won't let this feeling end 'cause it might not come again ... and you know it's not you I try to sing my songs But I have trouble with that too The most comfortable place isn't comfortable Did you ever feel out of place? 'cause you're not comfortable? I won't let this feeling end 'cause it might not come again @SONG: Redemption song Oh, pirates yes they rob us, sold I to the merchant ships. minutes after they took I, from the bottomless pit. But my hand it was made strong, by the hand of the almighty. He fought in this generation, triumphantly. Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom It's all I ever had, redemption songs Emancipate yourself from mental slavery, none but outselves can free our minds. Have no fear for atomic energy, 'cause none o'them can stop the time. How long shall they kill our prophets? While we stand aside and look. Yes, some say it's just a part of it, we've got to fullfill the book. Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom It's all I ever had, redemption songs Emancipate yourself from mental slavery, none but outselves can free our minds. Have no fear for atomic energy, 'cause none o'them can stop the time. How long shall they kill our prophets? While we stand aside and look. Yes, some say it's just a part of it, we've got to fullfill the book. Won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom It's all I ever had, redemption songs It's all I ever had, redemption songs These songs of freedom Songs of freedom